I remember 3 things from last night. I remember being at a pool party with my family and taking off my clothes as an act of defiance. I remember being on a castle cliff side with Sean Bean and him showing me the most beautiful and transforming sunrise I have ever seen. And lastly I remember becoming lucid and flying out towards the sunset only to notice the tether leading back to my body-- only my body was not back on the cliff with Sean Bean, it was somewhere else.
After the dream, I suddenly feel compelled to take milk and egg out of my diet while eating more fish. I am compelled to quit smoking. I am also compelled to watch the sunrise every morning. I have taken my sunset watching out of my daily routine and my body is missing it. That is the thing with these changes. They aren't things I want to change about myself, they are things that want to happen all on their own. I will be the first to say that I am terrible at forcing changes in my habits but this-- this simply wants to be. So I think it will if I put my energy in that direction.
I can't really describe it. I feel as if something important has happened to me. Yet it has come in one of the silliest forms imaginable. I can understand being transformed by one of my more in-depth, complete-world dreams, but this... I ain't complainin'. I feel the light of that sunrise bursting forth from my chest and that kind of joy is just too awesome to question.